the Rain....

i woke up today with an unusual feeling of coldness... yeah..

its not the usual coldness brought by the AIR-CONDITION but something else..

as it was... it was raining outside.. for a moment i thought i was "HOME"..


i let my self dream for some more time.. snuggling further in a blanket, imagining the aroma of hot BATANGAS COFFEE boiling in a pot just like what we always have in "NANAY PELING's house...

the freshly bake "PAN DE SAL.. my mother's cooking, my Tatay's warm smile, my grandma's stories.. even my siblings bantering..

i miss them all...

i wish i could be anywhere but HERE...

HERE in the country where people like me..
...work their ass off..
... give-up the comforts of home..
... leave the family and friends behind,
... endure the pain of being alone..
... miss the family reunion..
... miss the weddings in the family..
... miss birthdays of love ones..
...miss anniversaries..
... miss CHRISTMAS... miss NEW YEAR.. =(

... i miss being PINOY... i miss being THERE... i miss the feeling of HOME..

because THERE is where i really BELONG.

HERE, i am nothing but a part of the minorities and you,r e going to be treated as one.

yeah.. people like will be paid far more better than what we get at home
but at the end of the day... you would ask yourself.. WAS IT Fu***ng WORTH IT???? Considering what we need to GIVE UP.. in exchange for a few more bucks...was it worth it????

Hell NO!!.... not at all..... =(