Hi Mudra? How are you? How have you been doin'?
It has been a year since you left.. a lot of things have happened but time
still seemed moving so slow. There were many things that I have wanted to be
telling you every day.. but I know that you are all seeing it from 'up
there'.
I still miss you... a lot.
I have put my life at "half mast" since you left. I have been
silently mourning everyday and every night. Although I don't cry buckets of
tears anymore, there were times that I really breakdown and cry like baby when
a certain thing reminds me of you.I even closed down my FB and my Twitter and I
seldom Blog anymore. I resigned from the job that I really really love.
All those simple joys that lifts me up have suddenly lost its appeal.
I guess the road to healing is really very long and each and every step towards
it is both painful and sad (not a very good combination, right?)but I know, I'm
getting there.
Now that a year has passed since you left, I know it's time to REALLY move
forward and start anew. Honestly I am not doing it because I want to, but
because I know that it is what you would want me to do.It was really very easy
to succumbed to sadness but I know it will not make you happy.
So here I am blogging my way to a new life. Picking up the pieces of my
shattered life that I have left from nowhere. I know I will be a whole new person again in no time. One day we will see each other again for our hugs and kisses and by then, our time together will be infinite. For now, say hello to God for me, cause every night that I talk to HIM, I always ask him to give you my best regards. You always get my messages, do you? I believe so, after all HE is a great messenger.
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