the Rain....

i woke up today with an unusual feeling of coldness... yeah..

its not the usual coldness brought by the AIR-CONDITION but something else..

as it was... it was raining outside.. for a moment i thought i was "HOME"..


i let my self dream for some more time.. snuggling further in a blanket, imagining the aroma of hot BATANGAS COFFEE boiling in a pot just like what we always have in "NANAY PELING's house...

the freshly bake "PAN DE SAL.. my mother's cooking, my Tatay's warm smile, my grandma's stories.. even my siblings bantering..

i miss them all...

i wish i could be anywhere but HERE...

HERE in the country where people like me..
...work their ass off..
... give-up the comforts of home..
... leave the family and friends behind,
... endure the pain of being alone..
... miss the family reunion..
... miss the weddings in the family..
... miss birthdays of love ones..
...miss anniversaries..
... miss CHRISTMAS... miss NEW YEAR.. =(

... i miss being PINOY... i miss being THERE... i miss the feeling of HOME..

because THERE is where i really BELONG.

HERE, i am nothing but a part of the minorities and you,r e going to be treated as one.

yeah.. people like will be paid far more better than what we get at home
but at the end of the day... you would ask yourself.. WAS IT Fu***ng WORTH IT???? Considering what we need to GIVE UP.. in exchange for a few more bucks...was it worth it????

Hell NO!!.... not at all..... =(

the COOKIE

I had recently received a Not-So-Very-Good-News. And in life if it is a BAD news, no matter what level it is, it is still bad news all the same. Well, I had to admit that it doesn't necessarily makes me the most "kawawa" in the whole universe but it still "crippled" me in a way.

I would need to make certain adjustments on plans...

i need to change tactics..

i need to re-divert my focus..

i need to accept that things may not be the same as before... (for now)
and i need to still live my life as if everything is just alright when, i know very well that it is otherwise.

in all these.. the latter is the hardest thing to do.

We don't have much options these days, do we? Not when the famous "recession"is on going and all the people suffers from it. Life is foolish sometimes, it gives you THREATS, but the most foolish are the people who takes these THREATS seriously. We people were born warriors, maybe not on a same level as the others but we are equally equipped to fight any battles thrown on our way. On a lighter note, think of ourselves as a SMILEY COOKIES.. they still smile though they know they were made to be eaten... alive... heheh

As Paulo Coelho once twitted : (huh close kami!!! as in)

"Dificuldade" é o nome de uma ferramenta criada para mostrar à pessoa quem ela é.

"Difficulty" is the name of an ancient tool created to define who we are !

So guys, lets greet each day with a great smile on our faces and let's show the world what a TOUGH COOKIE WE ARE ALL MADE OF!!

=) Mars

the martial law.. part2??

PGMA had declared a Martial Law in Maguindanao and nearby provinces. Factual basis is said to be inexistent.. HUH! what's next?? Could these lead to declaring martial law on the whole country... beware Mrs. president.. people of the Philippines would surely never take things sitting down any more!

Let's not history repeat itself this time. enough is enough..

the readings..

Today I just spend the whole day catching up with my readings. Pepe had given me a copy of Cosmopolitan mag (Philippine issue, hah!) as pasalubong upon my request when she went for vacation few months ago. Mommy Joy (of AIAN delos Santos) was so generous as she gave me a lot of her foreign mags.. EMS had phoned from VS office telling me that she had reserve for me some magazines (courtesy of VS of course!) Seems everyone is so aware of my reading addiction and very much willing to support me on that... luv you guys!!

I was on a relaxing mode today so to speak! Setting aside (for the meantime) the daily life troubles (and ignored FB for once) and secluded my self in the myriad of words, facts and fictions, fashion, interesting thoughts.. liberating ideas, inspiring messages, good news/bad news,business, arts..

it's so exciing to read.. you can be ANYONE or ANYWHERE in just one flick of a page!

hayyy.. simple pleasures are really the best.. above all.. it's free..

howbout chuuu?? do you ever read??